A Lonesome Horizon.

•December 8, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Alone in this uncertainty,
both atriums have forsaken me.
the foreboding layers of the mind,
cannot be stripped away like cedar bark.
Thoughts are lost:
wisps of smoke on the horizon.
Feelings and impulse take siege.
Judgements are hollow and empty;
they are swept away like desert sands.

What do I really long for?

Memories’ icy stream trickles through my unconsciousness.
Happy ones are iridescent far in the distance;
those of sorrow weep like the willow tree.
Past moments flicker through my brain.
then passion,
then anger pulses like lightning.

Alone in this uncertainty.
Only a trembling concience to help me.
My heart-both atriums have forsaken me.
What do I really long for?
A lonesome horizon fills my sightline;
A ghostly embrace.



•December 2, 2010 • 1 Comment

What exactly is art? Who gets to tell you what it is that you make? If you put a piece of sticky tack on the wall in a gallery, does that make it art? Or do you have to spend hours sketching, drawing and painting in an attempt at perfection? I think it is the process that makes something art. If you decide that by crumpling up an old soda can you are creating something unique and beautiful in the world then that is art. Marcel Duchamp signed his name on a urinal and stuck it in a gallery. Perhaps art is what you make of it. It is the greatness of the ideas and feelings you express that make you great.

Snow in Sidney.

•November 24, 2010 • Leave a Comment

In the humble town of Sidney La Nina has taken it’s toll. Flurries of flakes drift down from the heavens and blankets of snow rest on sleepy rooftops. Although we call ourselves true Canadians, us Sidneyites are completely unprepared for this unforseen forcast. Vancouver Island and the lower mainland are the closest we’ll ever get to the tropics. The latitude that we currently occupy usually helps us maintain snow-free winters. Now we are left ambling through the week, most of us without snow tires, trying not to die or freeze. Snow is magical and lovely but at the point where it turns crisp and firm like ice and walking anywhere becomes almost impossible, I begin to think snow should stay up on the mountains where they belong.

Did I really Just Say That?

•November 17, 2010 • Leave a Comment

A simple question by nature should be pretty straight forward: “What’s new with you?” but for those who suffer from episodes of word-vomitting, it is difficult to respond with routine answers. The word-vomit is a difficult territory to assess; sometimes it adds spirit and vivaciousness to a conversation. Then again, it can also be a mortifying experience to realize you have been on a twenty-minute long rant and just exposed sensitive and somewhat embarrassing information to your public. When is it a good time to shut your trap and not devolve into this social sickness? The art of a good conversation ironically is not easily explained. It takes a certain experience-based skill set to maneuver your way through social situations. There is no school to learn how to interact with others. Comedians have a way with words but they also have a sixth sense when it comes to walking the line in social situations. In most situations in life you have to take a risk to move forwards but to what extent do people push the boundaries? Grasping to find the words to define your viewpoints may constitute as a word vomit but it may just strengthen your relationships with other people. Maybe all socializing is some grand dance where you try desperately to make it through each song without breaking each others toes. Perhaps the best way to approach a conversation is to just take everything in stride and see where you end up.

The Force(s)

•November 16, 2010 • Leave a Comment

There is an undeniable ‘thing’ that everyperson has. Some may call it a soul and others may call it having a strong character but never the less there is something inside human beings that drives us to achieve greatness. Throughout the time I have been on this little blue globe, many people have touched my life. Although I haven’t the slightest clue as to how people operate and why we are the way we are, I do know that one of the greatest experiences in life is the feeling of PASSION.
Grade twelve has been cruising along at a fair click and my peers are making decisions that will change the course of their lives. Many of us are scared shitless at the thought of making the transition into a functional member of society. How in God’s name are we supposed to make this decision? Crap.
Perhaps the best way to decide what we should learn, how to do it and who we will become is to follow your greatest passions in life. Scott de Lange Boom, at the age of eighteen and fresh out of highschool joined the army. A risky move and something that many people would cower away from but as I watched him pack his bags in preperation for Military College I knew this was right for him. Normal college would never be thrilling enough to encage his incredible intellect and Civi life would leave him frustrated without any sense of order, disipline or adventure.
His Career choice is as good a match for him as toast with marmalade. Choosing a career may not be as concise for some people. Maybe that’s the way things are supposed to be. As cheesy as it sounds, if life is a journey let your heart guide you. How can you feel complete and total BLISS without PASSION.

The Difference Between Boys and Girls…

•November 14, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Here is something funny I stumbled across whilst I was googleing.

THINGY (thing-ee) n.

Female: Any part under a car’s hood.

Male: The strap fastener on a woman’s bra.

VULNERABLE (vul-ne-ra-bel) adj.

Female: Fully opening up one’s self emotionally to another.

Male: Playing football without a helmet.

COMMUNICATION (ko-myoo-ni-kay-shon) n.

Female: The open sharing of thoughts and feelings with one’s partner.

Male: Scratching out a note before suddenly taking off for a weekend with the boys.

I was talking to a guy friend a while back and we were discussing breakups. He told me that the last time his on, then off, then on, long term girlfriend broke up that he completely freaked out. He didn’t rip his clothes to shreds as he morphed into the incredible hulk (unfortunately because that would’ve been amusing to watch). However he did go for a 5 and a half hour drive to nowhere. He didn’t know where he was going; he just drove. Apparently this is a very “guy” thing to do.

However even though I am a fairly health conscious individual, even if I’ve only just gotten back into running, I am the first to reach for a chocolate bar when a relationship goes south. Why is it that girls comfort-eat when they’re feeling emotionally wrecked? Well I googled and here’s what I found out.

Chocolate contains phenylethylamine, which is the same chemical that is released in your brain when you fall in love. This leads to an increase in the pounding of your heart and the feeling of a sudden gush of excitement. It is also believed by researcher that phenylethylamine in turn causes the brain to release mesolimbic dopamine in the pleasure centers of the brain, another chemical where its presence is at peak during an orgasm. The sweetness from chocolate also triggers the release of endorphins (endorphins are also released while making love).

So there you go-chocolate is really a chemical substitute for love. Perhaps the added pounds won’t help you get a rebound guy but at least you’ll happy indulging your sweet tooth.


•November 5, 2010 • Leave a Comment

I watched the Princess Bride the other night; it was glorious as always and very funny.  It made me appreciate a muscle that I haven’t used in a while: my sense of humour. Although it is not technically a muscle it should be treated as such. Lately people’s woes have been bogging down my life. My own woes are bad enough and I think I just forgot how to joke around. Humour, although learned, is also very instinctual and it was nice to be able to throw my head back and chortle once more.

So what is the point of my writing this? well I’d just like to remind any fellow bloggers to not take yourself too seriously and laugh XD